Tons of memories.....

Random look into one of the drawer; contents unchanged since 1999.

* movie tickets of KC Theatre,Chandigarh dated 25th Oct 97, saturday 9pm show.
* college final year identity card dated 08-08-95..validity till 30-04-96.
* a prescription by Dr.Satish K. Batra for Ms.B, dated 20-April-97
* many careless papers with songs written on them....
* juvenile recorded audio cassettes.
* numerous gift-wrappers, all preserved along with the gifts received.
* one reynolds jetter pen(gray color, exams special) along with its pack in which it came.
* innumerable toffee and choclate (mostly five star) wrappers.
* 1000 pens.
* Hanuman chaalisa.
* 1 Mouth organ.
* unforgettable coins with finger prints still intact.
* 2 old wallets.
* packs of balloons.
* one tiny "eItr" bottle, ....my manipuri friend Rabi Singh gave this to me sometime in 1998.
* one "elephant-shape" brass key chain (along with key of my hostel room)

Drop Patel w.e.f YESTERDAY

Indra Dev played spoil sport on Monday or HE punished us for not wrapping up the match in 4 days, I've never seen a pathetic wicket-keeping performance ever in my life, ball was not sticking to his gloves or I wonder his gloves were too big for his non-existent hands.

No being a 19 year old is no excuse for such performance after all you are doing national duty and you are supposed to do your best, at least you should appear to be doing your best. Patel dropped at least 4 catches and 2-3 stumpings when it mattered most; these misses can't be justified by any number of runs scored by him. And dropping Hayden/Gilchrist and missing of stumping of Clark is a not a mistake, its a CRIME if not sin. Apart from missed chances he gave some 19 extras as byes.

Now as we go into next test, selectors have picked up Nehra in place of injured Pathan, I really wish they don't include him in playing XI, after all replacement of Pathan can't be a "only" bowler, Agarkar should get nod ahead of Nehra coz of his batting abilities. Selection of Yuvraj as opener ahead of Chopra is also baffling, with all respect to his one-dayers prowess, he is simply not suitable as an opener in test-matches that too against opponent like Aussies. His footwork is suspect against new-moving ball, and even if he gets some runs he gets them in quick time, which doesn't helps the middle order, coz other than making runs the role of an opener is also to take shine off the ball and do not expose the middle order to the new ball.

Mr.Ganguly use your resources intelligently next time and please don’t let any Gillespie to stay at crease for four hours again.

Lets hope they do something extra-ordinary in the remaining matches and retain the Gavaskar-Border trophy.

Last 3 days.

Saturday
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Spent 3 long hours at Dr.Indrani Dasgupta's eye-clinic with eyes closed most of the time, thankfully nothing wrong with my eyes 6/6 but still she has suggested me two types of eye-drops for next ten days; and some anti-EMI glasses while working; now don't ask me the full form of EMI.

Sunday
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For the first time in my life I went to Dilli Haat with a friend, didn't like the place , it was too crowded and noisy. And from there proceeded to Ansal Plaza, that place was too exploding with people; its always a pain to shop with my this friend, coz his waist size is slightly more than 27, B-) so finding clothes for him makes me loose weight. (pain is wrong word but not fun for the sure)

Monday
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Visited a relative at Sir Ganga Ram hospital; no matter how plush now a days hospitals look like but people there too wear desolate looks.

I am a Gemini.

I am a Gemini. (Also known as "Twins") My Horror-scope starts like this:

" Eternally childish - both intellectually and emotionally, a Gemini simply refuses to grow up, and will often mooch of off someone until old age.

His only true passion is pointless chatter, which he has mastered to perfection. A Gemini can talk for hours without ever getting to the point.

He reads little, but has an opinion on every issue - even though he will change it about a dozen times a week. It is not uncommon for a Gemini to become an actor or at least a "writer".

Geminis can't stand stress - neither physical nor mental.

Even though a Gemini loves to entertain guests, at best, he will have nothing more to offer than soda and chips. Usually though, it's just his endless and pointless ramblings. "

Find yours

Something in air....

After ages winters are setting in at the right time, and I really wish it remains so unlike the other seasons of delhi, weather of delhi is one of its craziest facet, when it rains it rains like hell and floods every nook n corner, in winters fog engulfs the whole city and in summers, mercury soars to new records every other day.

Last year I remember wollens were required only after December first week onwards.;so seems like winters are in at right time.

These first few days of this change fills the air with some strange emotions( I dunno wat it is ..or various states of unhappiness or incompleteness/ 'haawaon mein guzare mausam ki khusboo hai' :-) ) but I can feel it all the time ; people are finding this weather romantic/sexy and wat not, and this slight chill in air brings back many memories; memories that begin but do not end; memories cloud the mind as if I want to keep hearing about them; now I'm not making any sense :-)
this chill brings back....
1) morning assembly at school.
2) going with friends to watch "Ramlila" and feeling 'this' chill while coming back.
3) cribbing abt sun going down early, cutting off playing hours.
4) cold n damp lecture theatres and labs. at college.
5) late-night tea in hostel.

this chill is special, it brightens some dark corners.
this chill is special, it makes my days warm.

Experience teaches us a lot, but life has a way of keeping us constantly challenged by presenting us with fresh, thought-provoking situations.

Now its official, me and Chinese food are not made for each other, no it doesn't gives me stomach pain or makes me sick, it gives me splitting-headache, headache that lasts at least 36 hours, and exactly that happened to me from wednesday afternoon onwards, mom and friends want me to get my eyes checked but I'm sure it has nothing to do with eye-sight; and mom's other theory says it happens coz I don't eat breakfast. :-)***********************************************************************************

Well, I took a leave yesterday and spent whole day at home with mom; I strongly feel "Baghban" movie should be banned here immediately, it makes my mom's imagination work overtime and she imagines weird situations and makes us feel guilty for Amitabh & Hema's plight.
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Dad's flight from Dimapur got cancelled yesterday, so now he will go to Guwahati first and from there, will come to Delhi, hopefully will reach by today noon.
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And now only Indra Dev can save India in the first test.
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last night watched last 15 minutes of my favorite movie "dil se", amazing climax, amazing ending. too good. again fell in love with it.
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at lunch Aussie are one down, well it was a good toss to lose. and good to have Sunil Gavaskar as consultant for the team; without Ponting , I think India have good chance to beat them.
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dad is still on his twin tour of Guwahati (Assam) and Dimapur(Nagaland), and will return tomorrow night. no worries.
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still struggling with this struts issue, I think I should ask for help from some hardcore java/struts guy, but not now, will give it another try.
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Reliance customer care people are just USELESS. They are worse than "sarkari" office people.
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now back to work!

Forced Life.....

Its lil past 6 in my watch as well in sys-clock, planned work for the day is done, and view from desk doesn't make a very healthy sight, 80% people are still there with their eyes on monitors, some having 'there-is-no-tomorrow' looks , some having expressions as if they are watching some horror flick and obviously some fake looks.

Recently I got shifted to this floor, its a huge well-lit hall with capacity of around 135+ people, everybody having their name-plate mounted over the small pin-board in front of them. Luckily I sit at left-most-corner, so I can see whole sea of people from here.

I was just wondering, how many of these people are doing work of their liking, or are just working to get next salary, and before delving into others lives, I threw this question to myself.

Am I doing the work of my liking? i.e. sitting in a corner writing code / fixing bugs.
This is infact a tough one to answer...hmmmm....there are so many needs or habits which I've "cultivated" over time, so have to earn money to meet the "earned" needs {just got cc bills B-( }.

At times everything seems to be "Forced"...

1) have to get up at 6:30; whether i like it or not.
2) have to perform morning ablution; whether I feel like or not.
3) have to leave home by 7:30,so that can reach at work by 9:10; whether I want or not.
4) have to work on this "technology"; whether I enjoy it or not.
5) have to fill up the daily task report sheets; whether I feel like filling or not.
6) have to wait for a friend to finish his work; whether I like it or not.
Usually reach home around 10-10:30.
7) have to eat the dinner within 5 minutes of entering home {coz mom-dad start their lecture on eating-on-time/sleeping-on-time B-( }; whether I'm hungry or not.
8) have to sleep utmost by 12 ; whether I'm sleepy or not.
9) go to point 1)

Waise, deep down inside I know what I enjoy doing / love doing but not to the extent of making a living out of that, or may be I've not tried it till now coz I'm busy fulfilling "cultivated/earned" needs.

My days will come, sooner or later but for the sure. I'm confident.