Thursday, September 30, 2004

Forced Life.....

Its lil past 6 in my watch as well in sys-clock, planned work for the day is done, and view from desk doesn't make a very healthy sight, 80% people are still there with their eyes on monitors, some having 'there-is-no-tomorrow' looks , some having expressions as if they are watching some horror flick and obviously some fake looks.

Recently I got shifted to this floor, its a huge well-lit hall with capacity of around 135+ people, everybody having their name-plate mounted over the small pin-board in front of them. Luckily I sit at left-most-corner, so I can see whole sea of people from here.

I was just wondering, how many of these people are doing work of their liking, or are just working to get next salary, and before delving into others lives, I threw this question to myself.

Am I doing the work of my liking? i.e. sitting in a corner writing code / fixing bugs.
This is infact a tough one to answer...hmmmm....there are so many needs or habits which I've "cultivated" over time, so have to earn money to meet the "earned" needs {just got cc bills B-( }.

At times everything seems to be "Forced"...

1) have to get up at 6:30; whether i like it or not.
2) have to perform morning ablution; whether I feel like or not.
3) have to leave home by 7:30,so that can reach at work by 9:10; whether I want or not.
4) have to work on this "technology"; whether I enjoy it or not.
5) have to fill up the daily task report sheets; whether I feel like filling or not.
6) have to wait for a friend to finish his work; whether I like it or not.
Usually reach home around 10-10:30.
7) have to eat the dinner within 5 minutes of entering home {coz mom-dad start their lecture on eating-on-time/sleeping-on-time B-( }; whether I'm hungry or not.
8) have to sleep utmost by 12 ; whether I'm sleepy or not.
9) go to point 1)

Waise, deep down inside I know what I enjoy doing / love doing but not to the extent of making a living out of that, or may be I've not tried it till now coz I'm busy fulfilling "cultivated/earned" needs.

My days will come, sooner or later but for the sure. I'm confident.


manuscrypts said...

earning for living, yearning for life....

Pallavi said...

At least you have a job... yeah you just dont need to make it your life... rescedule !! Work will always be there !! :) have a nice weekend

Stone said...

manuscrypts , Pallavi :: Yes, re-scheduling/re-planning is in progress.
Pallavi :: Rightly said, work will always be there..but who is afraid of work, not me. :-)

Arunima said...

as long as u know what u are doing, carry on:-)
u seem to have started rescheduling and stuff so, enjaai!!

therainandme said...

I have 2 do a lot of things that I dont want to, too :( But I guess that is life...
u said u knw deep down wht u wd enjoy doin...wht is that?

Stone said...

Arunima:: Yes re-scheduling is in progress, one step at a time and I'm lovin it :-), hope u had nice weekend.

endlessecho:: Thanks for visit, well..its mine lil secret....plz don't mind ;-)

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Gul said...

u will end up doing well in ur work if u work hard and give it ur best, whatever it maybe-
but if u put in the same amount of work into ur dreams, into something u really love - u will raise to the staure of becoming truly world class.

my professor said this to me once- inspired me to chase my dreams - figured id let u on to this lil advice too :)

take care!

Stone said...

Gul:: Thanks for passing your Professor’s nice lil advice.